Hello! Well I’ve been here before (and maybe some of you, if you have followed me for a while) I think I’ve tried to start a blog/website more times than I can count haha. So why am I bothering now when I know I might not commit to it? Who knows, maybe this time is different, but lets see how we go.
I write a lot and think a lot and have a lot of solid interests, although I think this may be the first time I really understand and know what my interests are. I don’t think I even knew what I was truly interested in before, because to be honest, I didn’t really know me. So how could I give honest content to others when I probably wasn’t even being honest with myself.
2017 was a strange year for me, it was the first year in my life where I didn’t run around, go crazy and basically do whatever I wanted. It was a grounding year for me. I moved out from home and suddenly had responsibility, so my usual sporadic holidays kind of went down the drain, or what maybe could be better known as, my constant escapisms. It was the first year where I spent most of the year not doing a lot, working at my job, practising yoga and spending time on my own, a lot of time on my own. I feel like I had the time to really visit myself and ask myself questions, what makes you happy Laura? What’s important? What do you need? How do you want to spend your time here on this planet we call Earth, how do you REALLY want to live? …I’m not sure I have really ever truthfully asked myself these questions without my ego answering them for me or without pushing them to the side and thinking well this seems good, this is what I should like/should be doing etc. However this time she (ego) wasn’t there; it was just my soul wondering why life suddenly feels so different and things that we are told we should be aiming for aren’t actually the things I want and learning that actually, this is me, speaking to me, for what feels like the first time.
Yoga honestly changed my life intensely in 2017.
Learning to not worry so much, understanding what being calm truly is, made me realise how damaging a lot of things I was doing/am still doing are. The modern world forces us into this cycle of work work work, make more and more money (then spend it all) and then think about time for yourself later. This needs to be flip reversed. You are way more important than your pay check. Live your truth, make the time to do the things that make you feel alive. Breathe, love, be and stop the glorification of busy (its nice to take time out) Be love, so then you can love others.
I am writing this in our spare room, under the velux window with the blue sky bursting through. It’s windy and that’s all I can hear. I am home alone, I am happy. I feel calm, content and excited for what is to come in 2018 and I randomly felt like this year I wanted to share that a lot more, I want to talk about my interests, I want to connect with like minded souls and I want to bare all, because life is about connection, unity, sharing and loving so we can all support each other to live healthy, happy and beautiful lives. So here I am, hoping you will join me.
Happy New Year.